It’s been about a month since I last attached a pump to my breasts. If they could talk, I’m sure they would thank me.
Until about a month ago I was still nursing my daughter at night and first thing in the morning, but I knew that it had become more of a comfort thing than a food thing because my breasts had gotten WAY smaller and since I wasn’t pumping I didn’t know how much I was making. My husband and I had gone to a wedding and since we had an overnight babysitter for the girls I took advantage of it and had more white wine than usual. Once we got home the next day I wanted to check my milk before nursing so I pumped. After 30 minutes I only had 1.5 ounces. That’s it! That’s not even enough for a snack for my one year old. So I figured it was time to start weaning her off. By the way, my milk wasn’t contaminated in case you were concerned.
With my first daughter the change to whole milk was easy because she was always bottle fed, so after her first birthday I just started giving her whole milk in place of breast milk. She didn’t seem to notice the difference, so all was well. This time around though I also nursed, since I couldn’t make the change as abruptly to whole milk, instead I had been weaning her off of nursing for a couple of weeks. I think I lost a lot of the emotional connection to nursing when I realized how little milk she was getting, I wanted her to start to figure out how to soothe herself. Since weaning off of nursing she has done great. We still do a bottle in the morning and a bottle before bed and then rock to sleep, lately I haven’t even been waiting for her to be asleep before laying her down. We do bottle, books, songs, rock for a few minutes and then into bed she goes. Some nights she cries a little, and others she talks herself to sleep. The whole transformation has been pretty amazing, especially with how fast it’s happened.
I am pretty sure she was our last baby, and I don’t think I’ve fully grasped what all of that means. Our basement is packed with baby clothes and I still have my pump and all the parts in my closet. They’re like a glimmer of a chance that maybe I’ll do all of this again. We’ll see though, now that I’m completely done with it all it feels pretty good. Stay tuned.
One of these days I will take the time to calculate how many hours I spent attached to my pump and how much milk I made for my first baby. All of that data is hand written on a million charts. For my second I used an app on my phone called Mommy Log. It was free and pretty good, I didn’t religiously track my milk and time, but here are some fun stats.
I pumped from January 13th, 2014 – October 6th, 2014.
- Total Pumped: 19.1 gallons
- Highest Day: 6/19/14 22 oz
- Lowest Day: 10/7/14 2 oz
- Average Per Day: 12.44 oz
- Average Per Pump: 4.84 oz
Best of luck to all of you out there still pumping, or are yet to pump. After another year of doing it I still believe it was the best thing I did for my girls and I’m very proud of it. I didn’t make the most milk in the world, I had my trials and successes, but overall it was a wonderful experience and I hope that all of this has been a help to someone – it has certainly been helpful for me to get it all out! Literally and figuratively. 🙂
Please share your own stories on any of my posts, I would love to hear them!
Thanks for reading!
Maria